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This is not the Raya that I want it to be or what it is supposed to be. There gone my dreams, my hopes and come the reality. But still a Raya for everybody to wish each others, to meet the relatives and to be with the loved ones! Me and family, we balik to my father's kampong at Negeri Sembilan and Melaka. Just a day trip, but it was fun. It was raining heavily and the wettest Hari Raya ever had.. My grandmother was crying after she saw us, actually we slightly late then usual due to heavy rain and road jammed. Maybe she was also sad because she was alone at the house at that moment, especially during the Hari Raya. My grandfather passed away early this year, and this is her first Raya without her husband. My grandmother has 4 sons, 6 granddaughters and 3 great-grandsons. My father is the eldest, one of my uncle at KL hospital (wife still in ICU), the other one, the wife expecting, and still in KL (raya with the in-law’s first then balik kampung) and the other one already gone out ...

It's been sometimes I didn't write anything on my blog! My life has change into so routine. I thing it's just fine. I'm not complaining or not satisfied with what i'm doing now, but I need to do something, I wasn't pleased with the outcome. Do you ever think that sometimes you're next to impossible? ... Sometimes I love ya ... ... Sometimes u make me blue ... ... Sometimes I feel good ... ... Sometimes it feels like I'm gonna die ... ... Sometimes it will be too late ... ... Sometimes it won't be fair ... ... Sometimes I find it's better to be somebody else ... ... Sometimes I don't recognise my own face ... ... Sometimes I need some time ... on my own ... ... Sometimes I need some time ... all alone ... ... Sometimes I get so tense ... ... Sometimes I think that you're the only reason ... ... Sometimes the road gets a little bit rough ... ... Sometimes I feel like this is only chemistry ... ... Sometimes it's hard to believe ... ... ...

My outing with Pengakap & Kelab Kemahiran Kendiri, SKTG, Program Integrasi Pendidikan Khas (Down syndrome, autisme, slow leaner, etc) as from 7th - 9th October 2004 at Kem Ampangan Resort, Kuala Langat. We had a great time together!! Love to be around with those kids.. I love kids!! me in the jungle!! gather infront of school the camp site me with nana & (forgot your name lah mamat) after flying fox crossing dead river

Falling in love is a choice or not a choice? It’s not just a terms of choice we make about whom to trust, but also in terms of our perspective and our attitudes. It give the impression that becoming conscious of our attitudes, definitions, and perspectives, we can start distinguish what works for us, and what does not work. And then start making choices whether our logical view of life is helping us, or if it is setting us up to be victims because we are expecting life to be something, which is not. When we're in love, the experience is euphoric. We are emotionally obsessed with one another. When we arise that person is the first thought on our minds. Spending time together is like being in heaven. Falling in-love is not an act of the will or a conscious choice. Falling in-love is effortless. People will ask, "Why do you stay?" in a relationship that is abusive or with someone who is unavailable. "Because I love him/her,” but that is not the real reason. The "lo...

18 Oct 2004, Mon 8.00 PM Venue: Singapore Indoor Stadium Prices (exclude SISTIC Fee) : Standard - $499, $350, $225, $125 (front view)$125, $99 (side / rear view) Please add to above price $2 SISTIC Fee for tickets above $20 and $1 SISTIC Fee for tickets below $20. Charges include GST where applicable. Date & Time Range: 18 Oct 2004 (Mon), 8.00 PM Duration of Performance: Approx 3 hrs Promoter: Lushington Entertainments Pte Ltd The Eagles - Glenn Frey, Don Henley, Joe Walsh and Timothy B. Schmit - will perform songs spanning their award winning 30 year career including tracks from the best selling album of all time, Their Greatest Hits 1971-1975. In concert, fans will treated to classic Eagles’ hits such as ‘Hotel California’, ‘Desperado’, ‘Tequila Sunrise’, and ‘One of These Nights’, and to tracks from Glenn Frey, Don Henley, and Joe Walsh solo projects. The Indoor Stadium show will be configured for 11,000 fans with an end stage at floor level and side and rear seats also availab...

Yesterday, 30th September 2004, I bought a small condo called Amazing Condo in Klang. It’s my first move and time to think about my own good. Now I have more commitment and I need to have a very good financial planning. First of all, I need to stop shopping; stop buying luxuries thing and stop spend for expensive holidays. No. I’m not supposed to stop all that but reduce it. (Haha, I never shops in Petaling Street and haven’t tried backpackers) Features include 900 square feet, three bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, living room and a kitchen plus kitchen cabinet. Paid deposit, signed S&P and now I’m looking for the bankers. The unit should be ready for hand over before May 2005. I need to have some extra money for plaster ceiling, wallpapers, furniture, electrical appliances and many more. (Any sponsorship) But I’m not sure whether to stay there or put it as investment, maybe once people moving in, and then I’ll know who will be in the neighborhood. If everything’s okay, then there will be a...

When in doubts, leave it to the hands of God, because He knows what the Best is for you....... ~Like the way Eve was 'shaped' from Adam's rib~ Bone of My Bone, Flesh of My Flesh Years ago, I asked God to give me a spouse. "You don't have one because you didn't ask", God said. Not only did I ask for a spouse but I also explained what kind of spouse I wanted. I wanted a nice, tender, forgiving, passionate, honest, peaceful, generous, understanding, pleasant, warm, intelligent, humorous, attentive, compassionate and truthful spouse. I even mentioned the physical characteristics I dreamt about. As time went by, I added to the list or requirements of my wanted spouse. One night, in my prayer, God talked to my heart: "My servant, I cannot give you what you want." I asked, "Why God?" God said, "Because I am God and I am fair. God is the truth and all I do is true and right." I asked, "God, I don't understand why I cannot hav...

J- hi dear! sibuk ke? rainin ere n i dnt think my student wil come so, il cu aftr work at usual place 4 tea ok? Hah Hah.. mcm betul je!! J- ye ke? Im adding more photo 2nite, yg gila2 sikit. U c my short hair? Mcm army kan? hate it.. SWIMMING?? Welcome 2 my world.. cu later aftr gym.. same place! > khee J- workout tak ari ni? jgn malas2 tau.. S- Just after w.out! Rainin ere, gotto run 2 my car, jauh plak tu! Ok kita jumpa tempat biasa. J- ur late! i dah lama tunggu.. Khee S- So dah makan berapa pinggan? I rasa nak makan laksa J- i belum mkn lagi tunggu u dtg, pastu kita pegi sri hartamas ye? nak mkn mee rebus hj.wahid.. S- Apa ni! Janji kat klang, im on d way ni! Emmm mana u tau restnt kat hartamas? J- benci betul la... U yang pilih hartamas tadi. kata nak try stall yg jual kacang pol.. in tht case i go bck jb 1st la.. date u nxt time.. S- Ee tak nak kawan u lah! Baliklah jb! Next x u kena masak! kacang pol tu macam mana? I dah sampai rumah J- kcg pol tu middle east punya food. roti...

Up to you to believe but no harm bra-free at home if you are not presently. Dear all... Do you wear bra for the whole day and even at home? I think we should go bra-free after reading this articles. It's a message to your health. I want to share with all my friends. I think it's important to be aware. For years, a lot of articles with regards to the causes of breast cancer point to an unhealthy diet and lack of exercise as the major links to this disease which happens to be the biggest killer among women during these last two decades. These studies would have been almost credible if it were not for the fact that several women (including Linda McCartney who have been religious vegetarians and exercise-freaks have also been unfortunate in suffering breast cancer. Perhaps the most convinsing article I have ever read with regards to this matter is one which links breast cancer to the wearing of bras. In the "Bra and Breast Cancer Study" in the United States, it was discov...

17th - 20th September 2004 KLIA - Langkawi - KLIA 1st day - The weather was damn hot when I first arrived Langkawi. Didn't notice it was a rainy season over there, coz I was in Langkawi last October and everyday rain, rain, rain. Arrived at the hotel, relax, rest, and had my petite lunch. (ha.. ha..)We went to Tanjung Rhu to view the sunset. Not so beautiful, cloudy. But the beach wow awesome. White sandy beach and clear water! I bet my friend from JB will definitely jump into the sea. (Right Mr. Ironman?) At night - after dinner, went to Ground Zero, listen to 8-piece live band music from The Naturally SXC. In-deed their (too) sexy. But I'm smart and sexy, unfortunately couldn't find any sexy man that night!! What a lonely nite but Mr. GM accompanying me (He is not available). 2nd day - It was raining heavily during my breakfast, so I thought that the island hopping going to be cancelled, but the rain stop at about 12 noons. Lucky us the weather turn out very nice and bea...

I received a poem from my ex and wanted to share the feelings with all my friends.. BEAUTIFUL DREAMS, CRUEL ENDING Many dates to remember, May 27, June 17, Nov 19, New years, Many memorable events and incidents, Laughter and joy we shared, that will always make us smile many times over. The 'LOVE' life, The 'Soul mate' feelings, The 'Made for each other' possession, The 'My other half' grip, Of our beautiful 11 years love life, Has come to a Cruel End, Heading in different directions Seeking solace, new love, new life and revised dreams..... I'm not the half the man I used to be.. SHADOWS... ...of you hanging over me, ...of the dreams that we shared, ...of my promises to you, ...of our undivided love and hopes I'm not the half the man I used to be... without YOU! You've lost your prime 11 years and dreams that we have built together I've lost the most precious thing that I ever had/granted in my entire life, and MY SOUL. I'M NOT THE H...

To my friends who are...SINGLE Love is like butterfly. The more You chase it the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts. Love is only special when you give to someone who is really worth it. Take your time and choose the best... To my friends who are...NOT SO SINGLE Love isn't about becoming somebody else's "perfect person". It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be. To my friends who are...PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE Never say "I Love You" if you don't meant it never talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look someone in the eye if all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl: Is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall. Or works both ways.. To my friends who are...ENGAGED The true measure of compatibility is not the years spe...

One day a father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the express purpose of showing his son how poor people live. They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family. On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?" "It was great, Dad." "Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked. "Oh yeah," said the son. "So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father. The son answered: "I saw that we have one dog and they had four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night. Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon. We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight. We have servants who serve us, but they serve others. We buy ou...

How far would you go for Love? Are you so in love that you would change religion for your love one? Some people switch lifestyles, other change nothing. How much should you sacrifice? If you want to make a relationship last, both of you need to clearly understand the nature of the sacrifice. It's about give and take!

A friend told me once, "When you make a decision based on the best available information at that time, your decision will always be right, even if it proven to be wrong later". And that friend also told me about a story of Alice in Wonderland.. When Alice was lost in wonderland and she reached a junction and saw a rabbit nearby, she ask the rabbit which way should she take, and the rabbit ask her "Do you know where you want to go?" and Alice answered, "no". The rabbit replied "does it matter then which way you take"... Life goes on... Every choice has an end result - Letting Go!

Kimi wins , Michael champion Champagne for Raikkonen , seven up for Schumacher Michael Schumacher clinches the 2004 title at Spa, but can't beat Kimi Raikkonen to the chequered flag after a highly eventful race. After so long... ( even my 'friend' told me that he almost forgot how Kimi look like - pathetic! ) - I don't care! I love you Kimi .. emm now I can say "I love you " to anybody.. The Finn survived a brush with Felipe Massa at La Source on the opening lap, and three safety car periods, the second of which neutralised a 13 second lead he had assiduously built over Schumacher. Each time, the McLaren driver kept the final lap behind the safety car to a crawling speed to ensure that Schumacher’s Bridgestone tyres lost as much temperature as possible, then sprinted away to build his lead again. It was nip and tuck the first time, as Schumacher was closing in by the 38th lap, but then an incident involving team mate David Coulthard, who crashed his McLaren ...

Lagu dari Dato Shake... (tapi lirik di email oleh cik Tiara Ayzan Natasha ) Dari kegagalan Satu percintaan Kualami Penderitaan Kesengsaraan Kebatinan Tapi di sebalik Semua kepahitan Tersembunyi Oh keinsafan Dan pengertian Yang amat dalam Terbukti kegagalan Bukanlah kehancuran Dengan anugerah Nikmat dan hikmat Kehidupan Aku pelajari Mengenali diri Dan siapa kita Yang sebenarnya Di bumi Tuhan Ho ho

Mengapa Harus Cinta? Mendungnya pagi ini Bagai memahami erti Lambaian lembut mu Memisahkan kita Hati pernah bersatu Kasih pun terbina Namun cita membawamu Oh jauh dari ku Korus Mengapa harus cinta Perlu ada yang berpisah oh oh Tak ku, mungkin mengerti Mengapa harus kasih Pastikan jua berakhir, oh sayang Tak sanggup ku menanggung pilu ini Masih di fikiran Pertama mata bertemu Di hati terasa Oh debaran cinta Keayuan wajahmu Merdunya suara Kini tinggal oh kenangan Hingga ke akhirnya Ikhlas ku berdoa Pada yang Esa Kan ku kenal Apa erti selamanya Pernah Pengalaman mengajarku Jangan mudah meluahkan isi hatiku Tapi bila ia melamarku Senyuman manis mu hati ku luas terbuka Yang ku idamkan musnah Yang ku genggam terpisah Korus : Aku pernah terjatuh cinta Kerana cinta diriku merana Aku pernah bahagia Kata manisnya buat ku terperdaya Biarkan ku temankan pilu Haruskah cinta oh kejam padaku Kini mula ku terasakan Denguppan hati ku mula rasa oh gelisah Kehadiran mu ku mengharapkan Dapat menghilanglan...

All I could hear was the beating of my heart and the harshness of my breath. All I could think was all the memories since 1993. All I could see was me and me alone. Do I need to change my lifestyle? Why changing is so damn difficult? I can accept this as my fate. But at the same time, thinking of you and the dreams we created, the time we spend together, the places we visited and me without you, it pissed me off. I know I need to forgive in order to gain happiness, like what Datuk Dr Fadzillah Kamsah did mention in one of his motivation talk. It is not that easy. Insya Allah, one day hopefully we could be best friend. Once upon a time.... THOUGHTS & MEMORIES The love of one person touched so many. The love of one person has left so many of us with wonderful memories. I'm so glad I was loved by that one person!!

Most of us can tell if a relationship is going sour, but often we want to ignore it thinking, praying that things will be fine. I'm trying all my best to be tolerant. But it’s all over between him and me. I'm alone, single and available. That was very awkward. How nice! Alhamdulillah, it's from Allah! Thought of keep it to myself but what the heck, one fine day, people will notice. It was due to some unforeseen circumstances that he had to choose other things over me and does not blame him for the failure of the relationship. It is fated. Even though I can really feel like the end of the world, it does hurt, really hurt. But I have to pretend it doesn't. Coz life is not fair! But it doesn’t matter. Sometimes. I wanted to ask him, what's going on inside of that head and heart of yours? Was the thought of being the man in my life just a hopeless dream you carried? Where are all the promises? Is it a lie? In-deed. "We had no chance Never made plans So many things...