CRUEL ENDING!

I received a poem from my ex and wanted to share the feelings with all my friends..

BEAUTIFUL DREAMS, CRUEL ENDING

Many dates to remember, May 27, June 17, Nov 19, New years,
Many memorable events and incidents, Laughter and joy we shared,
that will always make us smile many times over.

The 'LOVE' life,
The 'Soul mate' feelings,
The 'Made for each other' possession,
The 'My other half' grip,
Of our beautiful 11 years love life,
Has come to a Cruel End,
Heading in different directions
Seeking solace, new love, new life and revised dreams.....

I'm not the half the man I used to be..
SHADOWS...
...of you hanging over me,
...of the dreams that we shared,
...of my promises to you,
...of our undivided love and hopes
I'm not the half the man I used to be...
without YOU!

You've lost your prime 11 years and dreams
that we have built together
I've lost the most precious thing that
I ever had/granted in my entire life, and MY SOUL.
I'M NOT THE HALF THE MAN I UESD TO BE!

Always wished that you live 100 years and
I live one day less, just because,
I can't live without you even for a day!
Future looks so bleak and dark
LET IT BE..
I'LL FACE IT ALONE.

Wish you got the better man without an ounce less!
Beautiful it was my entire time with you..
Beautiful it will remain for the rest of my life

BUT...
Every time I take my breath
the thoughts of you looking for the better man
develops sharp pain in my heart
Every time I breathe...
Will the pain still be there
until my last breath?
Only time will tell. Or Maybe you can help..
Stop me from breathing!

Phoenix I'm not,
to rise from the ashes.
Dead man walking? Yes for the moment.
Zombie without direction! Yes.
Miserable and depressed? Yes.
Feeling guilty about my inactions? Yes, until I die
Sleepless nights? Yes, but not a clue until when!
Storms are not here to stay..
Will wait alone for the clear sky to appear!
Wishing you all the best with your present and immediate Relationship!
As for me I just wanted my Darling,
not anybody better cause you'll remain THE BEST
until my last day!

Sorry for wasting your 11 years and our dreams,
Sorry to my ex-future in-laws for betraying them,
Sorry for my inactions,
Sorry for my unfulfilled promises And..
FORGIVE ME for not making the decision when it really mattered!

I'M NOT THE HALF THE MAN I USED TO BE!

Time permits
Hope to become the better man
that I was not all this while.
May god bless you and your new love
as I just want to see/hear you HAPPY!

You coming back to me is against all odds..
Let it be, cause
I'm the one to blamed for this undesirable happenings and events!
GOOD BYE MY LOVE, GOOD BYE!
As long as you remember me
this heart of mine will pounce for you!
FORGIVE ME, BEFORE YOU BREATH YOU LAST BREATHE!

YOUR LOVE (EX)
K.

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